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I'm just so0oo0o sad, right?!
No wow okay.

Brian's birthday is Saturday and I don't know why I am so excited for it, I got him a neat present but it's not as great as I've worked it up to be.

My mom told me to "shut the fuck up" after school today when she was on the phone, when I was reading in the car she had to stay, "Stop reading for a second..." so she could tell me a really stupid story about what happened to her day. She just pissed me off today and was rude to me and I guess if she wants me to "shut the fuck up" (she's said this to me like...five times), I won't give my opinion to her, tell her about my day, read, and just overall stop speaking to her because I need to shut the fuck up, obviously.
I think this weekend I want to go see Across The Universe in some theater in Atlanta on Sunday because well I don't know why I wanna see it but I do.
Tomorrow we start Chaplin's "The Kid", I haven't seen in before but supposedly it's good and he's not so goofy-cabaret in it. But I don't know. We finished Modern Times and I loveddddd it.
I have to write something about a movie we saw today and then get stuff on the French government so...

Can you live a happy life if you continually do things you know deep down are wrong? No
There are lots of people who lie and cheat and speak ill of others.
Are they aware that these things are not right---or fair, if your prefer? Indeed, obviously, because social right and wrong haunts them
Do you think these people are happy? No
Is to be modest socially induced- or natural? Socially induced

Do you believe in fate?
Is sickness the punishment of the gods?
What forces govern the course of history?

This book is so weird =[

I just like how it brings to subject how "school is a trivia" and what you learn really isn't what you <i>need</i> to learn, because there are for more important things to know. Like where you are, what time it is, and why?

My mom got a new puppy =[ Even though that is the last thing we need considering Shakira is already messy enough? But it's so cute =[ it's light brown but it's a normal chihuahua just fat and really short and stubby and it runs fast and trips then hits its head a lot. It's too dark to take it out to poop so I hope it doesn't poop anywhere.
Shakirirairia is going crazy and chasing it and barking I think it's jealous I can't tell if they are playing or not but I guess we will find out later. It's got an oversized head and the vet rescued it from some abandoned house there were like 5 puppies and they gave it to us free...
Omg it's so cuuuuute it keeps licking my feet and digging on my feet and it always lays with it's back legs straight and it crawls and has it's legs stretched out =[[
Other than that today was kind of lame I went to school? All people talked about was that lame party and supposedly she is having another one this weekend which is really dumb. I have to start making that movie for film history tomorrow at Crew's house with a bunch of random people form my class? Oh well it will be funny I guess since I'm doing a majority of the filming/editing... I have a French test tomorrow that might be hard because it's over dates, seasons, etc and I hate French so I don't want to do it. Kay bye.

Yesterday was really weird at Kat's party but I guess I will explain everything now so I could look back on it later? Because whenever I do things and I want to remember them I can't because I don't write about anything so. I will.
Me and Tiffany get there and Nikki rode us in the golf cart to the back of her house and we had to help set up some food and chairs...her mom was halfway drunk so she didn't really know what she was doing. So we helped with that? And then they had alcohol and they were going to put it in the back of the woods in  a bucket full of ice so I just found joy in riding the golf cart to the back of the woods with them. That golf cart was fun, kind of the highlight of my whole...being there and stuff. After most of the people finally came, she turned on really loud rap music and girls were rubbing on each other and acting sexually attracted to each other and yes. I just sat on the couch and watched...and ate grapes. After a while I got a really bad headache and went upstairs when nobody else was up there and got on the computer because there was nothing else to do and I couldn't find a phone. Then some girl named Samantha came in and hid beer in some place in Kat's room and I just stared at her and she said to me (drunk), "You know...you are just so quiet at school...and now I can't just believe it you are just...actually talking! I think you should talk to me more." I just stared at her and then she left the room. Must I say I was the only one sober/not high besides this girl that goes to Apalachee and she was actually smart and kind of cool despite her clothing and how much she talked about softball. Joe Unsworth (the british kid) kept making everyone go outside to do the "Soulja Boy" and I got that on a video...it's just dark and dumb looking, though.
Then Tiffany and Danielle and other people were sitting at the table, and this actually was enjoyable because they were really funny, but over dramatic? Some kid kept looking at the chips bowl and trying to count how many there were because "THERE WERE SO MANY CHIPS!", then he thought this pitcher of Gatorade smelt horrible so he just threw it behind him. They had Chik-Fil-a chicken sitting out and I found joy at throwing chicken across the yard at a group of people and hitting them, but they were too drunk to figure out who threw the chicken.
After her mom went to sleep, most of the guys left and we all went upstairs in Kat's room and listened to more rap music, and I just sat on the bed and watched them (pathetically) talk to each other. Shaunne and Amy fell in love. Shaunne was eating Wendy's. I had to take Shaunne's keys or else she would have died on the road. Bales and Alex just magically appeared...then some girls left with them and got all dirty, supposedly, while me, Amy, Shaunne, Jenna, and some other REALLY drunk girl stayed in the room. I was really tired by now and I wasn't sure what was going on...it was like 1 AM. The mystery drunk girl was laying there...then sat up and threw up all over Kat's [white] carpet. I was about to gag because that is so gross. Then Shaunne gave the girl her Wendy's bag and it made the grossest noise and I swear she threw up about a quart...or so. Shaunne cleaned it up with Windex and me and Jenna were so mad because they were asking US to clean it up? Well, eventually me, Tiffany, Jenna, Danielle, and Blake fell asleep in Kat's room on a futon and I woke up at 6 AM to Amy asking where her phone was? Then people running through the house and stuff. I finally woke up at like, 8, and just laid there. Danielle was breathing through her mouth loud and Jenna kept snoring. Shaunne was asleep on the throw up?
Then every one woke up and went downstairs and ate cereal and it was the most awkward thing ever.

Now I've just been sitting around all day and I have school work but it's just so hard and school is seriously killing me...I can't keep up with it? I don't want to get all stressed out again like I did last year because that ended up sort of bad. I would be more motivated to do home work if I was doing it with someone fun but nobody is ever home and nobody can go out on school nights so that just makes it harder for me, what ever.
I'm sooooooo sick of being at home, too, they all give me headaches and yeah. I have really bad muscle pain right now, I guess because I slept funny. I need to take ibuprofen.
I have to start filming that movie for film history this week after school, which sucks because I don't have a lot of time because of homework and stuff! =[ Ugddfffdf. I guess I'll be okay I need to start calling Kansas because I never talk to her and. =[
My mom opens her shop on Thursday and Blonde Redhead plays next Monday, I want to go I have the money but nobody will go with me. I know I will regret not going later...